This song is a reflection on how I was feeling selfish for two very different reasons this summer. On the one hand, more than anything else, I just wanted some time to be alone. I felt that I was being pulled so many ways by so many people and I had such little available time to dedicate to myself. On the flip side of that, I also felt selfish because I was dedicating so much time to so many different people that I felt like I was losing my dedication to some of my closest friends and family. I felt their disappointment in me and I think this song helped me realize I need to spend more time on myself and my closest circles, which means it's not necessarily selfish to say 'No' and being selfish in that general line of thought is not a bad thing by utilitarian principles.
lyrics
Today, I just want to be alone, I just want to be alone
Today, I just want to be alone, I just want to be alone
Today, I just want to be alone, I just wanna
Man im being so dramatic
Laying on the floor
Hide behind the door
I just wanna, I just wanna
Move up to the North
Hide and call it growth
So familiar
So familiar
Can you say you’re proud of me?
Can you please just lie to me?
There’s a heart inside of me
Lately been my enemy
Every sentence ends with me
Even writing selfishly
Why’d I ghost my family?
Is a party therapy?
Nah, nah that ain’t forever
Nah, nah ask me what I learned this summer
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